I don’t know why, but my laptop clock was one hour behind when this morning I got up from the sleep . I noticed that after some daily wondering in my facebook. Now that I checked with what internet says about Zurich time, I feel so happy now for I have one more sixty minutes today.
It seems that this clip I watched earlier in the morning trying to convey something related to this happiness:
First. I feel obliged to express my sorrow for myself, for I have not written a post in days, as I made a promise before. I will try again.
Second, and most importantly, I am now living one of those moments in life where I feel something happening around me, those moments when I find myself soaked in dreams, goals, happiness and life. Those moments of awareness. I can’t describe it if you don’t have an idea what the heck I am talking about.
They story began when I was reading my daily quota of Google Reader, one of the most popular Google products where you would be able to follow blogs and friends, leave comments, share stuff and so on. I was scrolling and scrolling, reading the posts which had something to attract my attention. If you have ever done this, you probably know that after awhile, you start to get kind of bored, then you speed up your scrolling so you can make the unread items number zero, and that makes you even more bored. Anyway, tonight I was evidently very fortunate to open my reader.
At the same time I was skipping items and searching for something worth a look, there was something growing inside of me, I don’t know what that was, maybe some unconscious feelings, telling me “Why are you doing this?”. At first I neglected it, but It was becoming louder : “Why”. Believe me, It was so strange and also is now. I felt this energy inside of me which I can do anything, and I just don’t. Everything that is a value in my life and I have been skipped over them, came to my mind, and the question was strengthening, “Why are you not doing these”. Music, friends, happiness, street walking at nights, all these came to me, and I wondered why I haven’t seen them so far, This is who I am, or at least assume who I am, and I’ve been making live a life I’ve not been created for.
I know what I said above does not make a sense at all. I was just so excited that I needed to write about this. All I hope is that this feeling don’t leave me soon.
Petar and me kept working late last night. I usually take out my wallet and watch to feel more free. However, when I want to go to the university today, I couldn’t find the wallet in my pocket. I searched my room twice without luck. Then I thought maybe it is still around where we were working last night, so I went to the university, but it wasn’t there. I even checked lost and found section. When I had completely lost my hopes and we decided to continue our work on the project, I checked my Email, and bang, somebody had sent an email informing me that he had founded the wallet and now it is in one of the rooms of the university main building.
When I took back my precious, I replied and told him that I owe him one, and If he wants we could go drink someday, on me, to his health.
